Monday, 3 February 2020
Lost
Allah, Allah.. I've been wondering
Alone in the dark
Not knowing my destiny
Supposedly I should be clear
Of where I am going to
But no
I see myself now going slowly
Taking small steps
Each steps are just by luck
I could survive and proceed
Allah, Allah..
I finally found myself lost
Not knowing where to go
Show me the light
The path of the right
Lead me to what is destined for me
To what is best for me
For what is beneficial for everyone
Allah, Allah
It is so dark here
I can't see, I can't feel
I am curling alone
Desperate for help
I am begging
Make my visions clear
For what is right
Oh Allah, widen my horizon
Wednesday, 1 January 2020
I'm hurt.
You are a manipulative expert.
No matter how hard you've tried to prove your excellence, I'll never believe in you again.
No matter how many times you tried to win me again, I will not be that idiot who falls for your games anymore.
You've spent all your years hurting the people around you when you could make them the happiest people on earth.
I've lost all the hope I have in you to the point I dont care what will happen next or what will happen to the people you and I love.
I'm done trying to help, assist you in any way because you need to learn and grow.
Of all these years of experience given to you, you have never took it as an advantage to make yourself grow and prove yourself a good person.
In fact you took the advantage of the people around you and treat them as slaves to make your life easier.
I have lost all my trust in you. You have broken many promises that I couldn't count. It all leaves me feeling stupid again and again for believing in you.
I'd rather detach myself because I'm on my own. I've been on my own all along. That's what you made me into.
Regardless if you had done any good to me, I couldn't remember because of the damages you have done to me.
There's no point burning a house and still calling it beautiful because there's remnants of gold left in it.
No matter how hard you've tried to prove your excellence, I'll never believe in you again.
No matter how many times you tried to win me again, I will not be that idiot who falls for your games anymore.
You've spent all your years hurting the people around you when you could make them the happiest people on earth.
I've lost all the hope I have in you to the point I dont care what will happen next or what will happen to the people you and I love.
I'm done trying to help, assist you in any way because you need to learn and grow.
Of all these years of experience given to you, you have never took it as an advantage to make yourself grow and prove yourself a good person.
In fact you took the advantage of the people around you and treat them as slaves to make your life easier.
I have lost all my trust in you. You have broken many promises that I couldn't count. It all leaves me feeling stupid again and again for believing in you.
I'd rather detach myself because I'm on my own. I've been on my own all along. That's what you made me into.
Regardless if you had done any good to me, I couldn't remember because of the damages you have done to me.
There's no point burning a house and still calling it beautiful because there's remnants of gold left in it.