I am a changed woman and I am proud of it.

Change.
Scary and risky.
It is sacrificing whatever you had and turning some switches.
Some will remain on and some will be off forever. But the switches will still be there and triggering you to turn it on anytime at any cause.
It is tough to constantly remind yourself the reason why you changed.
It's never easy to change and the process is a lot to take in. Sometimes it includes sacrificing your interest for another interest. Well you have to learn that you can't always get everything you want in one go. Its either A or B. Or C or D. And the list goes on. We are just humans with only 2 feets, 2 hands and 2 eyes to only accomplish one thing at a time.
And I am happy that I took the change. Cos it shows how strong I am to to let go of what matters to me for something that is even better.

After all, we need to crave for the everlasting hereafter. Let's remind ourselves that.
And live life everyday as its going to be your last. You'll be happy or even happier cos you had a purpose to do for your own benefit and others. Most importantly you sacrifice for the love of the last messenger and Allah.

Life is never going to be easy, nor always be sweet.
Learn to sacrifice for the sake of Allah
Go back to Him always and He will come protecting you.
Granting you even a thousand times more.

Figuratively Alone

You know..
I've always thought that I'll be
All alone afterall
Not everyone will understand
And support you.
Not everyone will believe in you
And all that made me feel that
I am here all alone afterall
To support myself

Sometimes your loved ones has never knew the real you
Instead they only noticed your flaws and failures.
Some don't even see your efforts
But instead judge you based on your outcomes

But all that made me realize that
I only have myself to pull myself back up.

Never ever drown in anyone's judgement.
Cos they never go through what you've went through.
Never let their words define who you really are.
Coz you are the one living your life.
You are the one who is putting in the work.
And going through the parts and parcel.

Let them see
But never swallow their reckless words.
Sometimes all you wanted was them to support and understand who you really are.
But ain't that easy

I have always believed and knew
That my Lord has only understood who I truly am.
And with that is sufficient
Cos with His remembrance is complete
And only Him that we need

And never forget
Only The All Mighty who let us move forward
Towards a new
And better things

Keep on praying
Have hope and trust
And most importantly صبر
Because everything has to go through a process.

كل خير ان شاء الله
امين

Our nature our battle

Everything happens for a reason
Yet every reason is left hanging
and you will never find the exact reason
for every happiness and sadness that you're facing

Indeed life is full of secrets
Behind every secret lies a deep wisdom

Indeed all of us are created ungrateful
and that's our nature
and it is certain
that we like to worry
and that's our nature

and we would be sorry
and wrap ourselves in isolation
hoping nothing will disappear in our worry
kept blaming for ourselves and the reality

But never forget
that the All Mighty
has created us in the best format
the luckiest creation among all His creations

with that, He reminds us
about the blessings
He bestowed upon us
to show love towards His creations
with that, He eases us
after every hardships
to show His mercy towards His creations

Never forget
the One
the only One that loves you
despite your weaknesses
your disobedience
your recklessness
your ungratefulness
despite all that
He still has His arms widely open for you

He granted you the whole world
and gives you the authority in this Dunya
He created you perfect to witness His blessings in this Dunya

Subhanallah
Wal hamdulillah
Wa Allahuakbar

MashaAllah Ya Robb
Forgive me Ya Robb

As I am a sinner
never the winner
I tend to run
run away from my responsibilities
and I bend
Bend all from the realities
even though that I was informed
In the Book that was formed
that there are more to yearn in the paradise
but I follow what my heart desires

Indeed everything's a test
and it brings me back to realization
that I am just a tiny creation
who's just a slave of Yours

Ya Allah
I seek and beg for repentance
cos I know
You will always be in my presence
Protect us all ya Robb
from all the fitnah this world could offer
Protect my mother and father
my sisters and brothers
my loved ones
because all of us are fighters
Fighting our own battle
sometimes we rattle
but protect us from all the hassle

Cos the world
is our Jihad.

الله أكبر

الله أكبر

الله أكبر

"وَالَّذِينَ جَاهَدُوا فِينَا لَنَهْدِيَنَّهُمْ سُبُلَنَا ۚ وَإِنَّ اللَّهَ لَمَعَ الْمُحْسِنِينَ"

رَبَّنَا آتِنَا فِي الدُّنْيَا حَسَنَةً وَفِي الآخِرَةِ حَسَنَةً وَقِنَا عَذَابَ النَّارِ